Drowning Once MoreMissed opportunities harass mebreaking my carefully crafted dam,allowing a barrage of doubt toassault and drown my mind.I struggle to float and see lightamid the tumbling crests crashingover me and forcing me deeperinto the dark depths.Only violent kicks and strokesallow me to gain breathand slowly start to surfacefrom my self-imposed storm.Time passesNow settled seas are peacefulletting me gently float,slowly bobbing up and down inmy mind's warm tranquility.I am finally satisfied with mypast actions and decisionsand can once more begin workingon rebuilding my emotional barricade.I will build it bigge